Sunday 8 April 2018

Almost Spring Like

I can't believe it's been Christmas since I last posted. I'd like to say it was because I was out doing things, going places but, alas, that is not the case.

It's funny how one change in your life, living circumstances, health, can change everything. Because everything is connected.

I was having trouble sitting in the recliner and got a new-to-me wing back chair with ottoman. This chair was comfortable but I faced the same problem I had before, no table that would allow me to use laptop and keep my feet up. So I wasn't on the lap top long enough to do much work.

It was the holidays and then that down period that always follows. The recliner was still here, shoved into the corner as I was going to attempt to sell it, but weeks went by and the walls started to close in on me as my already small space seemed smaller, and I was getting out less because of the weather.

I also got an I pad and could use that for most of my internet stuff, games, research, E mails and now texting, so the lap top that is, for the most part, for writing, sat idle.

I think my MS is gradually progressing. The fatigue is constant and yet I don't sleep well at night, and miss the first part of the day trying to catch up. Pain limits my activity so that I take the walker more and more so I can sit and rest. This is a big change for me.

I use the walker going to and from the car, but then it stayed in the car. I think I was still in denial of my need for it, as I seemed to treat it as a cart, handy to carry my groceries from car to house. But if I hope to manage any activity, alone or with friends or family, I need to admit I can do it better with the walker.

The days I'm out and have to support my upper body sitting are so draining. That is why I spend the evenings in bed, and many afternoons, I admit, because my head and body are supported. Not a position for writing but I sure as hell am doing a lot of crochet.

Newborn baby hats and chemo hats for the hospital, stuffed animals for the women's shelter. You know what they say about idle hands.

But here we are into spring, though the cold and recent snow would not support that, and I want to get organized. The recliner is gone, my space is my own, and I want to make it work for me. So, in spite of recent setbacks, a worsening of my back and a fall, I am eager to get things around here that work for me.

Summer cannot be that far off. I'm sure if we ever get spring it won't feel as long as winter did and it will be blue skies and sunshine.